O.O

Wenshi, stop dreaming.
It wont come true.
No matter what you do.
Maybe what he said, is right.
I should just give up.
I dont knw why am I clinging on, since i knew th truth.
Really.
I told myself it was just determinination.
But it wasnt.
Idk what was it.
Because i cant figure out.
WENSHI's BREAKING DOWN REAL SOON.

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Im sorry, its all my fault.
Happy day supposingly. But everything changed when i reached home.
Today, met up with ziling javier yingying t go back konghwa.
Javiers kinda extra la. But anyway..
We went back t konghwa.
Did nth much. Went back see see niah.
Slacked awhile.
Saw mr tan.
Than aft that.
197`ed t parkway. Went arcade, food. home
On th way home. ( bustop la.)
Charlotte appeared from nowhere. And wenfeng appeared when we were loitering ard pp.
so Charlotte me Javier and wenfeng 31-ed t kallang, as i go home
While thy headed over t bugis, whre javier and wenfeng's families are there.
Kinda lol-.-
Had a super laughing disorder over there okay-.-
I cant stop laughing. Idiot!
All th tards were there. i realised/
So reached home/
Watch cooking masterboy. I finally finished it.Well nice show overall. :B. Brave cook.
Went t eat with papa mama.
Than go home.
Thats when everything start t change/
Msn`ed a while.
And everything really changed.
Thanks h,
for letting me know who he is.
Thanks n,
For making sure what she said was real.
Sorry h,
Because i was th one creating all th trouble.
Sorry n,
for appearing in your life.
.
Nothing t say alr.
So dont say.
Thanks; Javier and Wenfeng for cheering me up.




Tags replies.:
z0n: haha,;B Rayner. Lols. Kkahys, thanks a lot. i sure will do. Everyone do needs a listener right. :B. if you have problems. come t me. i can pluck my ear for you too.;B
Nicholas: Thanks. Dont forget what you owe me! :B
Javier: Hello;B baaa! Retarjay.
Wenfeng: Ahtarfeng:D Kkahys. try. :B thanks.

o.o

Tags replies.
Javier: Nehnehnipupu! :D/ Stupid retarjay. ;X
Wenfeng: What we two! You stuppid ahhhtarfeng! :X
Joey:] : Yeah, too bad lor:D.
Aaron: LOL. so you got come my blog one lar. just never tag. YOU GOOD! RAH.
Qishan: Okahy;D Thks laopo. ;D you tc too alright.
Wenfeng: You on tag craze arh? tag so many times. LOL.:X:X But that keeps my blog alive thought. :X so thanks!:D.
Joey :] : Wah. quarrel at my blog. LOL. trying t keep my blog alive arh? O.O
Wenfeng: AhhhtarFenggg! ;D
Javier: Oh retarjay, harlo`ings again? LOL.
tags replied:D.


i will be waiting for your tag. :D

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Sometimes, i really do wonder why do you exist in th world.
Why of all people, you?
Why? D:.ilymtylh. i swear.
Im super sad now i swear.
Not over results.
But you. D:.
Not even domokun can cheer me up.
I really dont know what t do.
Hais.
Tomorrow.
Meeting up with Javier, Swee Har, Ziling and Yingying
Back t konghwa.
I wonder what will my mood be.
Anyways. My mother talked back panlaoshi today.
Super funny.
She keep giving panlaoshi problem can.
I want t laugh also cannot.
Hais.


Dont stress la D:.
Everything, can settle deh.
Its only a matter of whether you want or not.
For example.
You own a book.
You want t know th story.
You dont bother t read / ask people about it.
How aer you going t know th story?
So yeah.
Just dont stress alright.
I will be always there for you deh. ;D

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Tags replies:
Erzhi: Yeah. Regine and i taking two shift. shift one and two
Javier: RETARJAY;D hellosxz! ;D
Wenfeng: Ahhfeng:D/ Thanksthanks! LOL.
JOEY:] : Aha! LOL. cause i promise him qing him pizza/ But i pok kai alr. Always i got money
he at home eat alr. No money, than he no pizza. LOL!
Javier: Orhohhhh! Retarjay naughty naughty ah! da ni pipi! :D
Wenfeng: LOL./ ;S
Javier: What my english damn pro! My marks higher than you hor! Eh crap la-.- i fail by 0.4 mark. FOURTY NINE . SIX. OMG-.- javier! All your fault la. and i was really sick.
Regine: Hellos? [:
Wenfeng: Turban? Or bandana? Bandana sounds more cool. Or wig? LOL! :X:X

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Currently chatting with Retarjay.
Tomorrow's WENSHI's hell day.
Okahy.
Win liao lor-.-
Sure sabo me t my mother one.
I dont wanna be grounded i swear!
Zomgzomg!
Okahy, going back konghwa on saturday cause of family dayyyy.
Sorry ziling, for breaking th chain. I pass you my bag th chain on sat. :X:X
Anyways. than on sun. Overing t dhouby ghaut t shop/ bunk. depends.
Suddenly I find june hol very packed.
Theres only a few days t play.
As like what mdm wi said.
I really need t buck up on my english.
I dont wish t see history happening again.
But im not gonna watch th news-.-
Like please. I will change channel
Mwahaha! LOL.
thats th reason why i hate tv.
Time consuming, I suppose.
Hais. Maple's down.
So i have th bloggin spirit again.
LOLOL!:X
and and. i will only play till monday.
Than i will start RUSHING all hol homework, so i can have fun at th back.
Andand. maybe possible, will have more time t buck up bah.
Sounds nice huh! :D
LOL.
Retarjay is injured! D:.
Get well soon huh:D. LOL.
Dont listen t Ahhhfeng.
He anyhow one. you put mian hua.
You cannot pluck out!
Gurantee. cause i try before-.-
I went all th way t th doctor and th doctor wasted 45 min on my leg taking out mian hua. :X:X
Ok anyway.
Dont tempt me t play gunz back again lar!
haha.:D.
Oh yeah. i think i swore not t lose t you.:X
SO IN ORDER NOT T LOSE T RETARJAY, ...
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Yay, i win? LOL:X

(:

Romeo take me, somewhere we can be alone.

(:

Mentally tired.

O.O

RETARJAYYYYYYYY;D
Mwahahaha!
LOL.
STOP WAITING FOR ME T POST LA. xDxD.
I just realised we were having fun bad mouthing people in msn.
Okhy, and thats super evil.

O.O

Fear and Worry

Fear and worry are born of th imaginings of a mind that is influenced by worldly conditions. They are rooted in cravings and attachment. In fact, life is a motion picture in which everything is constantly moving and changing. Nothing in this world is permantly or still. Those who are youthful and strong have fear of dying young. Those who are old and suffering worry about living too long. Locked in between are those who craze for merriment all the year round.

Joyful expectations of the pleasant seem to pass off to quickly. Fearful expectations of the unpleasant create andxieties that do not seem to go away. Such feelings are natural. Such ups and downs of life play with an illusory self or ego like puppets on a string. But the mind is supreme unto itself.

The training of the mind, otherwise known as mental culture, is the first step towards taming mental unrest. The buddha has explained:
"From craving springs grief,
from craving springs fear.
For him who is wholly free from craving,
there is no grief, much less fear. "

All attachments will end in sorrow. Neither tears nor long goodbyescan end the transitoriness of life. All compounded things are impermanent.

Old and young suffer in this existence. No one is exempted. Many teenagers have growing pains. Being neither frogs nor tadpoles, teenagers are understandably inexperienced at building stable relationships with members of the opposite sex. They try to show off their beauty in trying to impress their opposite ssec who are flattered to see themselves as sex objects. Both try to behave not as they really are but as what they think is adult.They are afraid if they behave naturally they will be laughed at. Behavious like this has potential for exploitation. There is fear for rejection as well as worry for deflated egos. Unrequited love will often "break" many teenage hearts because they feel that they have made a "fool of themselves". Some are driven to commit suicide. But such traumas could be avoided if life is seen as it really is.

Fear is nothing more than the state of mind. One's state of mind is subject to control and direction; the negative use of thoughts produces fear, the positive use realizes hopse and ideals. The choice entirely rests with ourselves. Every human being has the ability to control his own mind. Nature edowed man with absolute control over one thing, and that is the thought. Everything a man creates begins in the form of thought. Here is the key to help one understand the principle by which fear may be mastered.

A noted British anatomist was once asked by a student what was the beswt cure for fear, and he answered, " Try doing something for someone.".

The student was considerably astonished by the reply, and requested further enlightenment whereupon his instructor said, " You can't have two opposing sets of thoughts in your mind at one and the same time.". One set of thoughts will always drive the other out. If, for instance, your mind is completely occupied with an unselfish desire to help someone else, you can't be harbouring fear at the same time.

"Worry drives up the blood sooner than ago." Fear and worry in moderation are natural instincts of self-preservation. But constant irritational fear and prolonged worry are relentless enemies to the human body. They derrage the normal bodily functions.


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When is Dooms Day going t come?
Im craving for it.
I had enough of all this you bitch-.-
ok, i injured myself accidentally after i woke up from my nap of studying.
I didnt know why there was this anger in my heart.
that i need t vent at that second at nothing for me t vent.
And i had too much force on my hand which i accidentally scratched my wrist.
-.-
Ass. Not funny lor.
Damn pain.
Very scary also.
I want exam periods! D: D:.
But i dont awnt.
Exam, i will be busy studying.
No exam. I will be busy thinking of things.
exam. gg.
No exam. Relax.
FUCK!-.-
damn pekchek.

I dont know whats my true colour. Someone bring it out. I want t know my true colours. Whats my real weakness and strengths. I have not had this kind of feelings for long time. but it was just some bitch. Who irritatingly irritated me. That made me feel like this. I dont fucking give a damn for who you are ok. As long as you irritate me. I give you hell. You jolly well get there. Asshole.

You will never know how deep it is now.

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Pon`ed school yesterday:X
Zomg-.- I missed lesson.
Thanks t ziling for teaching. Haha.:X:X
Today ah. I first time see people in canteen snatch noodles siah.
Cute la.
Okahy. anyway.
In com lab now.:X:X
sch comp sucks. really.;X;X
Just finished doing maths.
Now waiting for regine t help me upload. as ziling also waiting.
:X:X:X:X:X:X
Panlaoshi say i fail overall sia. Gg liao lor.
Mtp sure die.
Somemore comp NOW spoil.
Chicken.
Bo bian lor.
Can only study / go out liao.
Hais.
Shall end here barhs.


Tag replies:
Javier: RETARJAYYYY;D haha. whats his mi mi wu qi. Tell me laaaaa;D xD!:D:D:D:D:D
Xingwen: Steady! ;D;D You choose lor. i anythingggg. xD. miss you laaaa.
YuanYiin: Yy arh. Very long ler leyyyysx. LOLLOL:X:X
Javier: You retarded arh. Why always tag with time. You think you clock arh:X
XingWen: must ffaster. Cause meet th parent-.-
Wenfeng: Anahanah! LOL. you sound like my mother. zomg-.-
Javier: Rahhhhh. RETARJAY LA. make me sick D: D:
Passerby: Get a life mansxz. You dont rock t. I take it as you are a kind guy bah. telling that i suck gives me a chance t change. Let me tell you. You are nothing better. go around people's blog telling people thy suck. Zomg-.- NOT CUTE OKAHY!. RAHHHHHH.

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heyoh.
Bad mood.
Tag replies:
Wenfeng: LOL! So you like th name ahh fengggg la. LOL.
Javier: Ah dui! How many times you wanna tag! LOL!
xingwen: Oh god! CAROLLLL!. i miss you damn much larx. go out one day leys;D
Javier, wenfeng: Chillll. LOL! Frequent taggers ley you all! LOL. see how many replies you both have. haha!
Yanye: Ohgod. Im not honoured. LOL! kahy la. thanks lor! :D
Javier: Retarvier say one ma. relax lor. LOL. no la. just pekchek;X
Chunhui: Yes, i do! LOL! ;D. Link you up next time when i have th motivation t blog! LOL.
Wenfeng: Lols! Ahhhfeng de hua wo na gan bu ting? LOLLOL!:D:D. Whatever la. wait. got cmt 2 meh? LOL
Esther: O.O. qi ji! ESTHER TAG MY BLOG LEY. LOL!;D So honoured. :X:X. wheres sm? Rehreh:X.
tags replied.
I will take it as you are voiding me. Maybe this is what i do t you in th pas. i deserve it. Im sorry. if i have been annoying. I wont be bothering you anymore. D:.

To that whoever you know you are theif.
Oh yeah-.- Whatever,
STOP GOING AROUND T STEAL THINGS LA.
Steal this and that not enough.
Irritating sicko.
You got bad habit isit.
Go steal your own things la.
Treat it as others.
Dont come and steal ours la.
Now my friend one also steal.!
ARGH!.
-.-

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Oh gawd-.-
DISASTER.
Stupid markers.-.-
Okahy, whatever, whats done acnnot be undone.
Oh whatever.
Not going t give a damn anymore.
Trala!
Giving up soon.
Guess what.
I got no mood.
No feel.
And no attitude
towards studies.
so fail laaaa.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Dont care dont care.













II swear you dont know how i feel now.
Th love for you is deeper day by day. god

D:.

Oh gawd. i need you in my life D:. Y0u wont know how i feel. T.T
Heyoh people.
Tags replies:D
Wenfeng: Ah Feng? (: LOL.
Javier: seems like i have t come up with another code. RETARVIERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!:d
celeste: Oh well, hello:D. I seen that style before. LOL. somewhere oevr th rainbow:X
Javier: Suppose that you two calling each other in my blog? LOL
MingJun: A bit too hyper! LOL!:D. Thanks anyway.
Javier: Retarjayy;D
Charlotte.: LOL.
Cleon;D: Oh well. who asked you t meet up super wenshi! She made your blog ultra active nehx!:D.
Javier: O.O. LOL.
Sinhai: REHREHREHREHREH! I NEVER SPAM HOH! LOL.
Tags replied!:D.

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SUPER SLACK!;D
Ok. Here t blog.
Nothing much this few days.
Exams finally end.
was chionging maple today for 11 hours-.- include th time where i eat and bathe. LOL.
crazy-.-
but i was certainly very slack.:D
So yeah.
Owe a lot people things.-.-
aaron, pizza.
Shengyang, seoul garden.
Ziling, present & ayyl!
Omgomg-.-
ok anyway. gonna sleep soon
Tmr still got music lesson and class outing. Teehee!:D.
Teoheng, than east coast!:D.
Omg!:D. LOLLOL.
okok! go sleep.
Someone in th name of Nicholas, asked me t update before it rot. oh gawd. super man. LOL!

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Wheee. ;D.

Yay, i decided t post some OVERDUED photos:D

:D. Boon keng macd. Look at how good ziling's photography skills are;D. Crap narx. say go there study. In th end. laugh niahs. LOL.

I suppose we are super guailan:D.

Ultra guailans!:D/ Celeste tweeneh, Wenshi, Ziling nuer!:D

Obvious its after pe._. Ziling, celeste, Wenshi. :D.Look at esther tietie hair!:D.

Shall end here:D/

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I have finally decided t reply tags. LOL.
Tag replies:
Celeste: Whatever narx! But if i know whose th theif. I SWEAR I WILL GET MY DOMOKUN BACK! :D
Jin: Yo! Mr bhb:D.
Keryan: Rollrollroll. LOL. okok;D
Wenfeng: Yeah narx! Go eat shit nehx! stupid theif.
Javier: Grahgrah. LOL. okok.
ClEmExPrEsSo: Okok:D.
Jordan: Okok.:D.
Pearlyn: Aiya, th theif no brain deh nehx! ._. LOL. hais!
Jin: Mr bhb, want help me steal? LOL.
Javier: HARLO. LOL.
Jordan: Thanks:D
Javier: AGAIN. LOL.
REGINE: Hello nuer[:
Wenfeng.: O.O. lol.
Saymin: NUER![: of course remember narx! LOL. i dont plan t link people nehx! Sorry.
Boonchua: Yeah:D You alr got it from jin, so hehe:D.
Javier: SHOOOO! >;C
Pinhui: Thanks:D. LOL.
Tags replied!:D.

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JINMING SAY IM CRAZY T POST THIS, so im POSTING.

JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
Wa wenshi so bagua ah...
♥, W. ;Mummyyy ♥ Ziling Nuer. and ShengYang Erzi. says:
WHAT BAGUA
JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
Ask swee har what ah
She lying
♥, W. ;Mummyyy ♥ Ziling Nuer. and ShengYang Erzi. says:
LOLLOL.
.
she told me she lying alr
JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
Oh
♥, W. ;Mummyyy ♥ Ziling Nuer. and ShengYang Erzi. says:
After sooo long, i thought you FINALLY got people like sia. but in th end fake dhe
LOL.
JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
FINALLY? YOU MEAN NOBODY LIKE ME AT ALL?
♥, W. ;Mummyyy ♥ Ziling Nuer. and ShengYang Erzi. says:
Yeah, mwahrahs!
JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
No loh.alot ppl like me last time
♥, W. ;Mummyyy ♥ Ziling Nuer. and ShengYang Erzi. says:
Bhb!
I letting whole world know
whheeee.
i go post blog
JIN.Mid-Year Exam.Sure Die. says:
Crazy


:D. And, i dont link people, so, TOOOO bad:D. you Idiot BHB.;D

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Spent about 5 hours rushing dnt today.
One word t describe.
TIRED.

O.o.

O.O
will i regret?

D:.

Crap, i feel so helpless without domo and my posb.

D;<

Wahrlau!
Go die la
IDIOT THEIF.
IDIOT STARHUB.
IDIOT PEOPLE THAT ARE MAKING ME ANGRY
IDIOT EXAM.
IDIOT MANJUSRI!
EAT SHIT LA.
-.- stupid. how many people things lost liao.
Checkcheckcheck
GO CHECK YOUR BRAIN GOT PROBLEM OR NOT LA-.-
Crap.
THIS MONTH IS DAMN SUAY LA.
And you stupid theif.
; Shit you mansxz.
Go die alr.
BUY YOUR OWN SHIT.
No money eat.
GO EAT YOUR SHIT.
No water drink
GO DRINK TOILET BOWL WATER.
Dont go around steal this steal that.
Aint you guilty at all?! HUH!
GO DIE LA.
You bitch/bastard.
Not your things, dont take la.
LOSER!
Steal my things nevermind
Still go steal My friend things-.-
You addicted isit.
Steal liao still throw in handicapped toilet.
Take all impor thing run
If i take yours WHAT WILL YOU FEEL.
GO DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
;.
Wahr crap. i swear im fucking angry now.
SCREW YOU BAD LUCK-.-
Im really very angry angry angry.
Fuckfuckfuckfuck!
What if i say i love you, will you believe. But what if i say i wont stead with you, will you cry? D:.

:O

Actually, I dont know.
I dont know how t reply D:
If you know what im talking.
._.
I just dont wanna give you false hope. But i really dont know.

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Love, is not asking from others, but is giving of oneself.
Okahy._,
Weekend do sucks and rock.
Because its so boreddddd.
But you get more time t do homework.
And get t watch anime play comp and stuff.
hehe.
Hmmmm, shouldnt i be studying by now.
Why am i still blogging.
Ok. nevermind._. i shall run alr:D.
And, Chinese is on wednesday.
Hehe. Die._.
;D.
Have t mug alr!:D.
Everybody, all th best for your midyears!:D.
With confidence, perseverance and courage, there is nothing in this world that cannot be accomplished. ;D!

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Okahy! Im posting due t siannesss. D:.
Went down t slack just now.
Realised a lot things have happened.
Chat with guys a while.
around 11.45 go home. all dispersed.
Stupid Ivy! You stupid comp! D:.
Lols.
Realised a lot a lot of things kinda true bah.
To: Somehow, i dont think you know its you, but you will know one day.
Yeah, you are a true betrayer alright.
You make people listen t you.
Dont friend here dont friend there.
Hmm, so whose th one being lame here.
go home also dont want say. not as if we will kill you.
Yeah. whatever-.-
Super dupah pissed of at that moment.
But after that. after we reach swing swing playground. mood changed.
:D.
See it, how betrayish you are.
People with you wont happy deh.
But with other people, still happy.
Mood changed t bad, th cause if you.
Think about it alright.
And thankyou, for fooling me around five years.
Didnt thought that thats your true colour.
Hmmm, kinda interesting. :D
Also,
To: You know you are who la!
So, is it true that people go in secondary school will start scolding vulgarities?
I dont know.
But YOU are one perfect example alright.
You totally changed into someone, that idk.
Not th person you are like last time.
Maybe, is some bad influence?
Who knows.
But, you change real fast. D:.
Where is th past tense of you?



.
Seems like,
learning bad is easy, being back good, is hard.
Hmm, maybe this is life bah :D.
Accept th fact WENSHI._.
Humans do change. :D.
Shall end my post here. though im freaggin bored. :X.

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Be willing to do, be happy to bear. :D.
The more you do, the more you gain; the less you do, the more you lose.
Maybe, i should start studying hard bah.
Though i still cant decide between pure science and poa._.
Heh.
Someone, motivate me:D.

To: You know who you are:D.
I dont care whether you read this or not! Ha! Cause you will always be th cutest brother. :D.
Dont think so much alright.
Life is like this.
Obstacles here obstacles there.
Dont give up.
Because giving up, means you dont even bother.
Dont underestimate youself alright! Because everyone has boundless potential.
Our greatest enemy is not others, but ourselves.:D.
So yeah! Win your enemy!
All th best, dont emo ler!.

:D

Tag replies:
Javier: Hellooooooo. Lols!
Kaiwen: Hehe. Thanks!:D.
Shengyang: Three than:D. Deal okahy!:D.
Regine.: Hello again! LOL.
Ziling: Meowww, hehe! Quite fun, but tiring lor. Dont know why. hehe.
Javier: Hellooooo again!:D.
Jordan: Eeee! Jordan copy cat! LOL. go copy javier! Haha.:D anyway, thanks:D.
Sinhai: Hehe. Ok lorh. TANSINHAI never tag me:D. Anyways, thanks!:D.
Regine: You toooo.:D You fail, mummy take cane cane chase you!:D.
Jordan: Not again another HARLO. LOL.
Javier: LOL.:X:X, since when did you get a human parrot eh?:D.
Kaisheng: Hehe. so am i supposed t type thanksthanksthanksthanksthanksthanskthanksthanksthanksthanks? LOL.:D
Yongsong: Heh, remember la! But i dont plan t link anyone! Sorry, D:. But thanks for tagging also!:D.
Javier: HARLO again!:X. :D:D/
Tags REPLIED. ._.

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D: D: D:.
Th world, is scary.
Everywhere in this world, is not safe.
I hate th fact, we are living in this world.
Why is th world formed.
I am afraid, one day.
We will lose all our friend, our family members.
Our loved ones, and th ones that we hated.
Why must there be hatred in this world.
Why must there be love in this world.
Why cant th world be neutral.
Since th word neutral exist.
Why must there be feelings.
Why cant th world be fair.
Why must there be illness.
I dont understand.
There are so many why's within me now.
I dont know th reason.
I only know, im afraid.
Too afraid t think anymore things. D:
And th main thing,
Why do we even EXIST. D:.